Automatic Eminence, 2006
The colors and the kids.
I feel like this everyday
at least for a few moments
That’s why I keep writing these letters
my heart swells, naturally
automatic eminency, it’s just natural
It’s like a smell
I go straight back to looking in your eyes
on the floor, on the wooden slats
and I swell, inside and out
it must be the color and the kids
because it’s not this place
it’s you, it’s my life
it’s not anyone else’s. I made it, myself
with help.
She wanted to be free
What did she know of freedom?
bondage. Her captures don’t even have the memory
anymore. They are released.
I did it solely for her, for her vision
for her, I did everything.
It’s all for you. for you.
Gold is the color of our joy.
Kids are raised. They are good-to-go.
She’s doing great even though
she still yells, sometimes. She heard
me call her a goddess. A nymph. A mermaid.
You are not a whale, you are a mermaid.
Complete beauty. Utterness. Absoluteness.
When you reach out to me,
I collapse. Did I tell you this already?
I don’t think so. I will.
And the response is, “Now I can.”
You chose me. You chose me. It’s just
a matter of time, now. Just a matter of time.
Her voice penetrates. Like your’s.
It changes my cells, my DNA, it shifts me
into something else. Her’s reminds me of
my new love. But, she knows the wisdom
and the other knows the power. But, you know
secretly that we are right. We are true. Truly honest.
This is the experience of a lifetime.
Life is the experience that I will always chose
repetitively, always. Touch me right there. Again.
© 2010 by Felice Tebbe. All rights reserved.